This is just a test to see how bad i am at blog posts and running a business. But you can't really call it running a business because I hardly get any sales and it's definetly not enough to live off of and I pretty much fail at everything I try because I care to much about what other people think and I can't let go of the past so it constantly haunts me and then puts me in a bad mood. And why do I even care about stuff that happens almost a decade ago. Who the hell knows why I am the way I am. It's blantenly obvious why I don't have any friends nor a social life beyond my kids and husband. Who most of the time I feel like I'm failing anyway. I can't even elequently speak nor write nor do anything in my life without constantly thinking I suck. So what the fuck is the point anyway.